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Okay finally. I have things in order. Except for subscriptions, but that can wait until I get a job.

MissMackenzi is my new drawing account (main account if you want to refer to it like that, I'll be watching friends and such on that one)
MisMarta is for my photography. I can't keep it together anymore, it's just bothering me to have it like that in one gallery.

This account stays for stamps and such fun things, and to remember how long I've been on DeviantArt. 6 years! Gotta love it.
I'll be rewatching everyone (I have like ten million people to sift through, hopefully it'll ease up on my inbox. I'll re-fav stuff too, not everything but my collections and other notable things.
I'll probably leave up most of my more popular stuff and just hide it. Otherwise... rewatch me if you like my art?
Hooray for fresh starts!
(Hopefully college will be this easy.)

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Queen of the Desert by hibbary
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Recently I've had thoughts, mostly varies, but all along the lines of "Okay, I've got this figured out", "I'm pretty happy how I am", "Life is going pretty smoothly" and "I've finally got a plan for the future". Then, somehow, after this sense of content starts to settle (over lumps of little lingering anxieties, but I digress), key components of my life somehow completely change and I'm met with a whole new perspective. It's like, once the universe thinks I'm steady on my own two feet, that means I just need a monkey wrench in my best-laid plans.

Oh, wait, the "Best laid plans of mice and men" philosophy. I forgot about that before I started typing this. But I guess that explains everything: no matter what we plan or how foolproof it is, something can and will go wrong, because there is no way to have 100% control.

Okay, maybe I answered my own inquiries.

Still, has anyone else had experiences like this? Is this how the rest of life is going to be? I'm staying optimistic that I can still handle it.

(P.S. I am 18 and 7 months and somehow I got jury duty? Is this common?)

X O X O
-Mackenzi


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In addition/update
I'm going to post my daily horoscope here, so I can share with someone how incredibly accurate it is. Today for Scorpio:

"You are on edge today as the Moon moves into your sign. You may feel exhausted because your mood swings can be hard to manage. Fortunately, you are able to take them in stride when you know what to expect. Nevertheless, delaying an important decision is a good idea now, so don't let anyone talk you into making a choice under pressure. It's your prerogative to wait until you're completely ready before making your move."

This fits today to a T. Thank you Tarot.com for giving me some good advice.

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Queen of the Desert by hibbary
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BTW
Well, it's sort of weird, because I don't really feel any different. What I am super aware of is that I have no obligations to my family or education anymore. I'm a legal adult, so it's 100% possible to take a plane and just leave it all behind, start a life somewhere else. I can do whatever I want (except drink) and this new freedom is sort of weird. I'm glad I already have my college plans so I can figure out what I'm gonna do with my life. That's what college really is, a place to learn what to do with your freedom.


I haven't done features in a while.

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Appear by VictraART


That's all, folks.

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...you have 24 hours to change it to something less obnoxious, DA. Thanks.

Edit. I made some comments on the v.7 news page about what I enjoy and dislike. I hope that seperates me from the whining/dramatic anger people.


EditEdit. Have you ever heard that you can't for whatever reason eat a tablespoon or more of cinnamon? Well you can't. I didn't even try half of that and I died a little inside.
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I bought my prom stuff today. By stuff I mean dress, shoes, jewelry, clutch. Mission: accomplished. Who says you need to buy everything a month in advance?
Super awesome.
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